beginning of an end......

SO I THOUGHT I WAS OVER YOU..
FORGOOTON YOU COMPLETLY
IT SEEMED ALL WELL..A BIT 2 GOOD TO BE TRUE...
BUT THINGS DID SEEM 2 WORK..
AND WORK REALLY FAST..
I DID SEEM 2 FALL ASLEEP WITHOUT HAVING TO CRY..
I DID GO OFF MISSING YOU A LIL LESS..
FEELING A LIL LESS WRETCHED...
THE DAYS WERNOT EXACTLY BETTER WITHOUT YOU..
BUT THE WORLD I HAD BUILD WITH JUST ME AND YOU.
.HAD TO BE SHATTERED..
I WAS TRYING NOT TO LET THE PEICES HURT ME..
LET IT BREAK ME MORE...
EVERYTHING WAS WELLL..
EXCEPT A FEW HEART PANGS...
UNTIL 2DE...
NO IDEA WAT HAPPENED..
I KNEW I WAS PLAYING WITH FIRE..
INDIRECTLY TRYING 2 TAKE OUT YOUR TOPIC..
WITH A MUTUAL FRIEND..
I KNEW I SHOULD NT.
AN INNER VOICE KEPT COMPLAIING..
BUT IT WAS NOT AS STRONG AS MY CRAVING FOR YOU.
TO KNOW HOW WERE YOU..
YOU SEEMED TO HAVE BEEN VANISHED INTO THIN AIR.
JUST A BIT OF INQUIRING WOULD NT DO ANY HARM.SURELY..
AND I WILL NOT ASK OF YOU..
JUS SOME ODER FRNDS..
IF SHE TAKES YOUR NAME THEN FINE..
OTHERWISE I WOULD NOT CARE...
AND THE SHE STARTED...
ABOUT YOU...
I FELT MY HEART THROB..
GOD SHE DOESNT EVEN KNOW YOU..
WTF IS SHE TALKING ABOUT YOU..
SHE LOOKED @ ME?
SO ULL IN TOUCH?
NO I EXCLAIMED OBVIOSLY NOT..WE WERE NEVER GR8 FRNDS ..
YAY ...WE NEVER WERE REALLY...HUH....
I CAN SEE THAT NOW..
COS GR8 FRIENDSHIPS DONT END DIS WAY..
I FELT LIKE HITING HER..IT WAS NOT HER MISTAKE OBVIOUSLY..
I HAD NO IDEA WHAT I FELT..
IT WAS A FEELING I COULD NOT COMHREND..
I JUST DINT WANT 2 BE DER ANYMORE..
FACE HER...
AND THE CONVERSATION ABOUT YOU...
YOU WERE BUSY IN YOUR WORLD.
NOT EVEN AWARE REMOTELY OF WHAT PAIN YOU CAUSING ME HERE..
I DECIDED 2 KEEP MUM..
LET HER GO ON HOW GOOD YOU ARE..
AND RELIEVE HER LAST FEW MEMORIES OF YOU..
I DINT WANT 2 RELIEVE MINE...

M I STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM?
OR MI OVER HIM?
LOVE NEVER GOES AWAY...
NOR DO MEMORIES..
IN THE TRAIN 2DE...I WAS WONDRING..
I HAD GOT OVER D 1ST ONE...I DINT REMEMBER A WORD ABOUT HIM...
SURELY ILL FORGET YOU TOO.
IT LL JUST TAKE TIMEE...
AND THEN IT LL B FINE..
I WONT MISS YOU..
IWONT FEEL MY HEART JUMP WHEN SOME ONE MENTIONS YOU.
WONT FEEL MY HEARBEAT DISAPPEAR..
THINKING ABOUT THAT YOU DONT CARE..
IM ALIVE OR DEAD...
A SERIES OF THOUGHTS ON ANDD ON....
YOU KEEP COMING IN AND OUT...
SOMEDAY YOU WUD GO OUT COMPLETLY ..
SOMEDAY..POSSIBLY WE LL MEET AGAIN..
BUT TILL THEN...IT S FAREWELL..
WHICH I NEVER THOUGHT IT WILL BE.......


SO TILL THEN..
ILL KEEP MY IMAGINARY CONVERSATIONS WITH YOU ON..
STILL IMAGINE OUR FUTURE MEETINGS..
DRIVE MYSELF A LIL MORE MAD..
N DEN FINNALY...
LAUGH IT UP IN A FEW YEARS TIME....
N THINK IT WAS STUPIDITY..
LIKE D 1ST TYME..
I KNOW YOU WOULD WANT THATT TOOO....
WONT YOU ?