states....my 1st evah poem i published ol...

der s dis black patch in front of mah head...
n dat s all dat i can see...
i try and luk beyond...
but dat s all mah eyes can c afterall...
i hear whispers all around..
but cant comprehend a single one out..
i wonder wat s so wrong wid me..
i on a side..n every 1 s against me.
dat black patch seems getin bigger n bigger...
trying 2 suck me in..
im half swallowed n not tryin a inch
2 get out of it..
i luk on suprised..
wat has happend...
i wanna understand wat d whispers r ...
but all i can possible understand now is all dark...
i wanna tell a lot of things...explain mah love..
but i hav words 2 express ..
i thot i was emotionless...
but now i can see an emotion of despair
emotion of wanting u forever in mah arms...
emotion of holding on 2 u forever in mah life..

but all i hold now is d black patch...stuck in mah soul..eatin me up...

slowly..painfully....
sadistically...
emerging more and more victorious...
after every moment...
after every moment dat im breathing...it s sucking away mah life..
slowly..painfully and sadistically...............\

4ever n 4ever